scared of the dark

Clever wordplay and relentless patience
I'm running into something
Something I'm afraid of
Sometimes I sulk sometimes I'm wasted
Pessimism's easy with the fruits I've tasted

Tonight I'll stare at the stars while I walk into bars
Try to cover these scars with my smile and charm

Running with scissors been cut before
Like an addict I chase it like I'm going to war
Fill it with less but dreaming of more
Trying to upgrade to settle the score

This is what I'm left with
These are the lows
Love your life
I hope you'll never know

Dragging

Waiting for that new shiny thing
To brighten my life again
I know laying here
 has never gotten me anything
But what's the point of leaving
When my displeasure in this is obvious 
You're still there pulling on me
It's hard to move forward 
when I've left everything behind

It's as hard as I expected
constant doubt and rejection
Just want a new beginning 
So I can smile about my ending 

I hope my sorrow wakes you at night
I know you feel me
You say you're sending me love
It's not that easy
Reminders plague my apartment
Memories haunt my dreams
Remember when we were unstoppable

It's as hard as I expected
constant doubt and rejection
Just want a new beginning 
So I can smile about my ending

I'll sit here writing sad songs 
Wonder how long since you last called
It doesn't make things any better
Here comes the pressure of winter weather 
I need to peel this old skin off
And find a way to be reborn 
Another day I'll sit in silence 
Could've would've should've gone...