feeling accomplished im struggling to be negative, the things that once felt imprisoning now feel like home.
this season always gets me.
the wind, the colors where there never used to be any, the way wearing a hood up changes my perception.
its the same relaxing feeling a bear must get when hes settling down for hibernation.
im finding faith in people in general and easily recognizing those who have lost all hope.
having been on something of a spiritual journey yesterday mania was expected today.
i've painted a picture mentally of what human emotion looks like and im hoping nikki will find the time to bring it to paper...
when asked to find my safe spot and visualize it with my minds eye:
me in the middle of a field laying under the only tree at the top of a hill
to my face a beautiful sunset finishing
to my back a shear jagged cliff
at the bottom is a ball of light
with seemingly great effort its making its way up the face
i dont know why i saw this nor did i have control
i thought i was someone who needed someone
why is my safe place subconsciously, me, alone, at the top of a hill?
those thoughts aside, i like the idea of having to reach the bottom to see the light
