Dragging

Waiting for that new shiny thing
To brighten my life again
I know laying here
 has never gotten me anything
But what's the point of leaving
When my displeasure in this is obvious 
You're still there pulling on me
It's hard to move forward 
when I've left everything behind

It's as hard as I expected
constant doubt and rejection
Just want a new beginning 
So I can smile about my ending 

I hope my sorrow wakes you at night
I know you feel me
You say you're sending me love
It's not that easy
Reminders plague my apartment
Memories haunt my dreams
Remember when we were unstoppable

It's as hard as I expected
constant doubt and rejection
Just want a new beginning 
So I can smile about my ending

I'll sit here writing sad songs 
Wonder how long since you last called
It doesn't make things any better
Here comes the pressure of winter weather 
I need to peel this old skin off
And find a way to be reborn 
Another day I'll sit in silence 
Could've would've should've gone...