the only real person

"i fell apart in your arms for the last time,
and i felt free to do what i want, because of the things you told me.
because of the things you told me, you told me,
i felt free."
-circa survive, i felt free

i couldnt have said it better myself my man.

why do people in your life early on try to hide all the negative things that are obviously going on around us?

why do we teach our children that sugar coating a problem is the fastest way to forget about one?

we could all use some guidance, but is building a bridge out of lies so we dont get our feet wet the best way to teach a kid that the water is dangerous?

im having a difficult time dealing with the reality of life once again.

we trudge along on our parental predetermined paths knowing exactly where the road runs out, and whats most likely going to be along the way. Are middle aged people that are truly happy, happy because they've accomplished more along that road then they had envisioned?

did everything go as planned?

it seemed like once everything was settled and everything went as planned for me that i decided to destroy it, bored maybe?

huge anchors hanging from my ribcage is the best way to describe the way i feel...
when i was with you today you cut the strings and gave me wings.
i left my heart in a parking lot tonight, things have changed for me again.

whoever said "its better to have love and lost then never have loved at all" can go fuck themselves.